By Jill DanielsEver felt like you don't measure up?
It’s weird that when I’m upset, truths like, “God loves you” or “God’s there for you” just don’t seem to make me feel better. Then I go into a cycle of feeling bad that those truths don’t make me feel better. They should. Knowing that God loves me and will always be there for me should make me feel better.
The cycle just doesn’t let up. I get upset about something and then grow more upset with myself because I’m letting that something mean more to me than my relationship with God!
This morning as I was thinking over these things, I was trying to find some Scripture that might speak to my situation. After looking over a couple verses my mind went back to these verses I once memorized during a hard period of time.
Psalm 73:23-26 says,“Nevertheless, I am continually with you; you hold my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and after ward you will receive me to glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”
It was almost like God spoke to me saying, “Jill do you remember how I was there for you then? Do you believe that you are making progress and I am leading you? Don’t forget that your heart may trick you into believing that you need to do this on your own. On your own you get bogged down, you don’t make progress. With me you are strong! Only through me will you see true progress!”
I heard a quote the other day that said, “Some quit due to slow progress, never grasping that… slow progress is still progress.”
Just because it is taking me a while to learn what healthy conflict looks like or, heck, what it looks like to be a godly woman, it doesn’t mean that I’m not making progress. God has been there right beside me the whole time, holding my hand, giving me counsel and watching me grow. Sometimes I need to just take a step back and remember that “my flesh and heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”
God works through others and through his Word to show me he is there:
-God has shown me I’m too critical when it comes to stuff getting done around the house.
-Gently through His Word He has shown me what it looks like to live humbly.
-He has shown me grace through friends forgiving me for hurting them.
Let’s live in a way that we pursue this sanctification in our lives! Let’s pray that God would show us what in our lives isn’t glorifying him! He will be faithful to pointing out those hindrances to us!
God, I thank you for the reminder that even though we might take two steps forward and one step back, it doesn’t mean that we aren’t growing to be more like you. I pray that you would encourage us today and help us to see that you are there as our strength. We will never be truly weak because we have you! Show us today where in our daily lives we fall short of your holiness. Help us to take those things to heart and live in your Spirit’s power to conquer sin. I love you so much!
[This post first appeared on Radical Everyday Living, February 10, 2014.]